Monday, April 20, 2009

If Only...

The thing is... I can post happy vacation photos but...

But...

Maybe it's just that coming home from a trip on a Sunday night and going to work on a Monday morning don't really go well together.

Or maybe it's that I sit in a house with piles of mail and laundry and papers to be graded and lunches to pack and photos to organize and kids to play with and blogs to read and I just feel overwhelmed.

Maybe it's that I haven't been entirely honest with everyone around me and it's starting to get to me, or that I have been entirely honest with those around me and it's starting to get to me.

Maybe it's just a silent ache within...because really, I know, I know what I want.

If only...


15 comments:

Lindsey said...

Sending you a big, fat hug....and a big, fat glass o' wine. Remember "Rome wasn't built in a day."

Cheri @ Blog This Mom! said...

Sending you DonZenYoda juju.

Chris said...

Hope that whatever you want comes your way.

Jason, as himself said...

Ah, man. I'm sorry.

Jasmine said...

Sounds like you need another vacation... sorry girly, wish I could help ya... Let me know.

Laski said...

If only . . . Oh, how I want that for you.

You deserve so much joy . . . so much.

Jenn @ Juggling Life said...

((((Hugs))))

Burgh Baby said...

*Hugs*

You know what you want, now keep working to figure out how to get it. Not everyone may be happy with the baby steps it'll take to get there, but in the end it will all be worth it.

More *hugs*

Marlys said...

I want you to feel the love you send out to friends and readers. I want you to feel the warmth of the sunshine while laying on a dock. I want you to feel the happiness you are capable of. I want you to feel the hug I send each time I hear from you. BUT, I know you can't feel these because I want you to; you must figure it all out (and it seems that you have).

I love you, j-me! Hang in there.
Love, mar

katydidnot said...

there is always the option of head exploding email chains. would that help?

Huckdoll said...

You need a big Huckdoll hug, missy. Everything will work out. I promise.

Kat said...

I always say that I need a vacation when I return from my vacations. Ugh.
I'm sorry you are so torn right now. Praying for your peace. :)

Krystyn said...

I'm praying for you!

I know you've got a lot going on and catching up from a vacation requires another vacation!

Trish said...

What Marlys said and Laski too. I want you to have the.... if only. And you will. Whatever that is.

CC said...

You know what's even worse... having all that junk to deal with and having taken NO vacation!! lol!