Thursday, January 31, 2008

Darn it!

I'm sitting at the airport right now after just visiting Colorado.  I need to vent.

I hated it.  I absolutely hated it.  I hated the house we're leasing.  I hated the schools for my kids.  I hated getting stuck in a snowstorm driving over two hours to go nine miles.  I hated it.  I'm so scared right now.

I loved seeing my friends who hosted my (extremely late) arrival.  But that was where the love ended.

What the heck are we going to do?  I want to go home.  I want to go home, to San Diego.  :(

My husband is going to freak out.  I'm freaking out.  

More later.  Just needed to get this out.

7 comments:

Amy said...

oh i hope it gets better. maybe it's just anxiety coming out. i know i have to "warm" of to things sometimes.

RJTrue said...

I came across your blog through someone else's I read regularly. I don't know the circumstances of your moving but I just want to say I wish you the very best. I think (and know) how difficult change can be but I hope it brings about many good things inspite of the apprehension! I'll be checking in!

Misty said...

When I first moved from Maine to Utah - I thought "what the (f-bomb) did I get myself into?". No kidding. I HATED Utah, hated the people out here, hated the heat, hated it ALL! I joined the Mormon church and moved out here- - mainly so I wouldn't continue boozing and smoking weed with my buddies. I was 17 at the time. Now - 10 years later, I am in LOVE with Utah. It's my home now. Even if it's not Maine.

So - the point of the story is. A. Give your self time, a lot of time... and B. If you feel you are doing the right thing, then the right things will happen, even if you can't see a way yet. God will find a way to provide through this hard transition for you and your family.

Maybe a year from now I'll read a post about how you're loving it in Colorado now.

Vent ANY TIME!

just jamie said...

Whew. Thanks ladies. Still lots of things to figure out ... more venting to come I'm sure. But so far, I'm so thankful for a supportive husband and family ... and friends ... and blog friends. :)

Misty said...

How are you holding up?

LaskiGal said...

How are you doing? I'm with you on the whole moving thing. We've done it so many times. I've cried some massive tears (before going all hormonal). I'm currently trying to accept that we might be here for a while longer--I was dying to head back to the city.

It took time, but I'm OK with where I am--I took community classes, tried to get involved, made some friends and it isn't so bad (even if I do live next to cows who produce one heck of a "scent" come HOT summer months). I'll keep positive thoughts for you!

I have something for you!!!

My Ice Cream Diary said...

At least you are getting the cold honest truth right away. When my husband and I came to check out Seattle (twice before deciding to move here) it was always sunny, bright, and beautiful. Then we moved here and it was lovely fore a whole year. Then it changed and turned into the Seattle that everyone warned us about. Wet, grey, wet, cold, wet.

That said, we've been here 5 years now and (though I still hate the wet, cold, greyness) I have come to love the place and can't imagine leaving.... just wish I could see the sun more.

Good luck!